As I prepare to participate in a year-long spiritual development adventure with the Wellstreams program, I want to share with you what has led me to this moment. But first, let me explain that the Wellstreams program is about deepening one’s spiritual life and awakening to self, to others, and to God, and expanding one’s wisdom. The program “fosters discernment and provides education for those who may feel called to the practice of spiritual direction.”
I started the program once before, many years ago, but was not in a space to continue the program. So this time I needed to discern my readiness and willingness to commit to this opportunity for growth and transformation. Being like the doubting disciple Thomas, my fears about what this journey to the core would require made me question whether I had “the stuff” to be part of this journey with others. My internal dialogue was working overtime to cast doubts about my being “good enough” or “spiritual enough” to be part of this program. While this dialogue still plagues me, my desire to give this time to God, to let God work in me and to be open to whatever God wants to do in me is stronger than these doubts.
During my discernment process, I came to realize also that to move forward and to open myself to possibilities, I needed to take a leap of faith. And so it is that I embark now on this journey, knowing that this program will likely offer opportunities to be stretched, to develop compassion, and to deepen my awareness, appreciation, and acceptance of self and others, and to nurture my relationship with the Divine.
This journey to the core, to understanding who I am (not who I should be), who God is for me, and who God desires me to be, are the strongest pulls for my participating in this program. I trust that it will be an unfolding journey of discovery, mystery, connection, freedom, and groundedness. To connect with and reach this core, I know I will need to be open and vulnerable, something that I have learned to do through writing these blogs and slowly through my own work with my spiritual director.
You might say that my journey to the core is similar to the discernment journey to understanding if God is calling a woman to religious life as a Sister. In both journeys, God speaks to us through our desires and calls us to be who we are meant to be, and invites us to go where we can best be ourselves, knowing God is always with us wherever we are.
If you are feeling called by God, cast aside any fears you might have about religious life and contact us to explore if God is calling you to become a Sister.
Also, we invite you to join us also for a virtual discernment retreat, September 11-13, 2020, which we are hosting via Zoom. Spend some time with us praying and talking with our Sisters, sharing with other women of FAITH, discovering God’s PURPOSE for your life, and enjoying an experience of COMMUNITY online. Click here If interested in this retreat or contact Sr. Bea Tiboldi, OP at email@example.com for details about this free retreat opportunity!