“Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.” (John 20:25)
Not only did Thomas in the Gospel have his doubts about Jesus’ resurrection, but I remember the time when I was discerning my call to religious life, I often doubted this call. Was it really a call from the Divine? Would I be able to live this call throughout my life or would I have to make another choice after a while? With such doubts, like Thomas, I began to bargain with God, “If you choose me to live the religious life, please give me a sign….” When I did not recognize any sign, I said, “This may not be my call.” Then, when I saw a sign, I said, “It may be just a coincidence.” I do not remember how many times I said such things to God.
“Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.” (John 20:27)
This invitation is a faith challenge. One day, after I shared my doubts about my call with a Vocation Sister, she told me, “I think you have a religious call. Many people have this call as well. Then, so what? Not many people make this happen.”
“Why?” I asked. Continue reading →